College Dropout, Track 20

Adrianne Beer

I play math games with his inmate number,  
draw flowers on his letters. 
Lebanon – maximum security.  
London – medium security. 
Ohio lies – these are both the same concrete home.    
 
We tack his picture on the fridge.  
A blue jumpsuit against a painted forest background.  
They are taken to look like he is ours again. 
He smiles big, with roses in his hand.  
These photos are for lovers – not loved ones.  
I tell him how stupid he looks,  
he makes fun of my crush on The Rock.  
 
My professor tells us what prison is like.  
I tell him visiting rooms smell like old toast  
and lemon laundry detergent.  
I list the rules – no shoulders showing, 
no locations on clothing, don’t sit too close.  
 
I did not know what parole was 
until I waited for it.

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